But for Jade, at least, he wants to try. Feelings are so much for him, even good ones, and maybe that's because he knows they won't last, or at least that's how it feels. Like one day he'll just be alone again and maybe that's how it should be, maybe he's too messed up to understand how normal emotions work, how he should feel, how much he's supposed to love people. Dirk can love people and not want them to go away and Jake doesn't want it, either, but trying to stop it from happening isn't something he can do. Maybe that means he doesn't care enough.
He wants Jade to stay, though. He wants Dirk to stay and he wants to see Jane and Roxy and John and Dave, too. He wants it so very much that maybe that's enough. Maybe it's good enough.]
Okay! And I guess um, you can still be my granddaughter, too! And... yes, so... I like this plan.
[He rests his head against hers, just a little. It could almost be accidental with how light it is but he wants to see if that's okay.]
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But for Jade, at least, he wants to try. Feelings are so much for him, even good ones, and maybe that's because he knows they won't last, or at least that's how it feels. Like one day he'll just be alone again and maybe that's how it should be, maybe he's too messed up to understand how normal emotions work, how he should feel, how much he's supposed to love people. Dirk can love people and not want them to go away and Jake doesn't want it, either, but trying to stop it from happening isn't something he can do. Maybe that means he doesn't care enough.
He wants Jade to stay, though. He wants Dirk to stay and he wants to see Jane and Roxy and John and Dave, too. He wants it so very much that maybe that's enough. Maybe it's good enough.]
Okay! And I guess um, you can still be my granddaughter, too! And... yes, so... I like this plan.
[He rests his head against hers, just a little. It could almost be accidental with how light it is but he wants to see if that's okay.]